One day last weekend, I opened up the browser on my phone. Oddly, a google search for 'Pearland Birth Center' (the birth center I was using) popped up. Since I hadn't searched for this in quite some time, I was a little confused, but noticed that there were a couple of new reviews for the birth center. These reviews were from the aunt and the mother of a little boy that died. Needless to say, they were not good reviews.
The night before this, I had a strange dream that I had gotten in an argument with two of the midwives over my diet and left the practice. So, these two things together left me wondering if someone was trying to tell me something. I spent some time stressing over it and decided my best bet was to pray over it and see what God led me to do.
I spent some extra time in church that Sunday praying about what we were being led to do. Later in the week, I found the birth story on a blog that is very biased against birth outside of the hospital. (I have no desire to advertise this blog, but I do want to link the birth story, so here it is http://hurtbyhomebirth.blogspot.com/2011/03/thomas-story.html ). Nevertheless, this story made it clear what we had to do...leave the birth center. Every step along the way were poor decisions made by the midwife at this center and we could not, with good conscience, trust them with our care. I should add here that I have know idea to the truth behind this...but, I do know that it would take a very sick individual to make up a story about the death of their child. Regardless of the truth behind it, we can't unread the story, so we will always have that doubt.
So, back to the hospital it is. I am extremely saddened and disappointed that we will not get the birth experience that I so desperately wanted for this baby. I have been sick over it for the past few days. On a positive note, though, we did find a very natural childbirth friendly OB in town, who was kind enough to take me as a patient even though she is not accepting new patients at this point. We have heard wonderful things about all the doctors in the practice and are excited for our first appointment tomorrow.
**In other news, we had our appt with the high risk OB last week. Baby boy is growing right on track and weighing in at 1lb 7oz. Cervix looks great...loooong and closed! Contractions are here, but very, very infrequent. Nothing of concern.**
(P.S. That Emily walking post is in the editing process, along with some very cute picture posts)
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1 comment:
Jamie, I think it's great that you are listening to your intuition. Not all midwives are created equal!
The most important factor in having a good birth experience is confidence in your care providers. I don't think it's impossible for you to have the birth you want in a hospital setting, just maybe a bit more challenging.
Have you considered hiring a doula? I don't have any direct experience, but I've heard they can be very helpful.
Do you remember the Interior Design teacher at EHS? Tara? She would wait as long as possible to go to the hospital when she was in labor. That way there was less time for hospital staff to intervene.
I know someone else who didn't dare drive late, but didn't want to go in early. She walked around the outside of TMC until she felt she was getting close.
For what it's worth, I think it sounds like you are making the right decision! I absolutely agree that having those doubts would negatively affect the birth.
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